Mysterious Mind Of Mine


Family Matters

Who Am I, Again?

You said that I’m your wife.

The mother of your children.

But I sat there looking at you, as if I’m seeing you for the first time.

“Where am I?” I looked around. The place looked vaguely familiar.

“Do I know you?” I asked you again. But this time you just smiled. That smile, I’ve seen it before.

I reached out to touch you and I see my old wrinkled hand. I pulled back in horror, not knowing that I’ve aged.

You gently caressed my face. As I closed my eyes, memories came flooding in. Bits and pieces of our life events, appeared in flashes.

I opened my eyes and saw your tired eyes looking ever so lovingly at me. At that very moment I said, “Darling, I’ve missed you.” You never took your eyes off of me and I could see tears welling up in your eyes. You said “I’ve missed you too, sweetheart.”

“It just feels like yesterday that I married you. Where did the years go?” I asked and you gave me that smile, again. The smile that I fell for.

As I looked back down at my hands, you reached out and held it softly.

I looked at you and asked “Who am I, again?”

∼ Mysterious Mind ©


It’s That Time Of The Year, Again!

What I’ve come to realise is that every time a year comes closer to an end, I begin to have mixed feelings. I start wondering what the upcoming year is going to be like? What’s in store for me? Am I ready for it? At the same time a pang of sadness hits me when I’m leaving behind the current year. It’s like it’s been there for one whole year and no matter what, I wouldn’t be able to go back to revisit my memories. Then what comes to my mind is what my significant half always tells me, “take one day at a time”. The past is ought to be changed as its gone, the future is still uncertain as it is yet to be seen. Therefore why worry about the past and be nervous about the future? Live for the present as it is all that we have now. I’ve decided to embrace each day as it comes and live it to the fullest. So I’m just going to t.o.d.a.a.t (take one day at a time). Thank you 2015 for the memories. Hello 2016, it’s nice to meet you!

~ Mysterious Mind ©

Did I Truly Know Him?

I’ve been thinking about him lately. I was just wondering how much did I know him? And I realised not that much actually. I barely knew anything about his family. I’ve never met his parents nor his siblings. Well I never had the chance actually. I hardly knew much about his past and I sometimes feel guilty for not knowing him well. Maybe because I felt like I wasn’t really close to him. Or was I? It makes me wonder? The “him” that I’m referring to is actually my father… Yes my father, whom I lost due to cancer 14 years ago.

“Sometimes you will never know the value of a moment until it becomes a memory. ” 

~Dr. Seuss

It has been more than a decade now but the memory still lingers on. It was pretty difficult initially but eventually time took over the healing process. I still miss him though. Occasionally, he does appear in my dreams. Mostly just observing without uttering a word. As if he just dropped by to see how I was doing? Checking on me maybe? Sometimes I feel like he appears to be cautioning me on certain aspects of my life… Yes I agree, we all do mistakes at times. Well, I guess he is my guardian angel after all.

I think I never really told him how much I loved him… and I still do. Like I said, most probably because I felt like I was never really close to him. I mean we did have the father-daughter bond and on top of that I was the youngest so I guess he might have had a soft spot for me. Well, he was a lovely father. He did have much love for his children… I wouldn’t complain. He did the best that he could, at least during the final days of his life. I never had the chance to say sorry to him for everything that I might have done or said to hurt him. What I regret the most is that I wish I’d taken the trouble to get to know him better.

For those of you out there, if your father is still with you, my only advice is please do get to know him (I’m sure most of you do but it’s just that how well do you know your dad?). Interview him if possible and learn about his life. You never know, you might even be surprised by the outcome.

Mysterious Mind ©


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